Y Thursday, October 21, 2004Y
5:29 PM
today being a rainy day triggered a lot of my memories...memories with kC and bT...but mostly is BT..really cannot imagine how 3 yrs ago i was crying heartbrokenly for him..haha but now really glad that we are friends.. the kind of friends that would joke and play ard jus like other normal friends..no hard feelings... of course sometimes we would thought of old times.. but its all sweet memories are at being kept in our own personal space.. to me... i can hardly recall much le but its ok lo... cos i have really gotten over KC so i guess it doesnt matters to me whether he really still keep the stuffs i gave him or not... trust is something that is v hard to build up yet it is something so fragile..
BT, where is he? we are so near but how come i dun get to see him? does it means we have no fate? haiz... no matter where i go, where am i, i nv fail to think of BT... i know i miss him..its not a habit... its jus cos i haven get over him... he is still my special guy in my heart no matter what has happened in the last few months... i only wish i could turn the clock back and be with him once more...
All the logics my frens told me are reasonable, logical...but matters of hearts need not logic, need not reasons..they jus need chemistry and feelings...my feelings for him have not died...thats all i am clear of... ZH often say "enough is enough...tears wont dry if u dun give up" and XM will say "what you love most may not be the most suitable for you" i agree to all..but agreement is yet another thing...
hai...
hai...
