Y Tuesday, May 17, 2005Y
4:44 PM
what is love? does love lasts? will one love his/her partner the same way as the first day when one falls in love with him/her? haiz.. love is really so complicated... its really hurts so much when one falls out of love... it really leaves a deep wound on oneself...
my fren, i am sorry i cant be of much help to you.. all i could do throughout the one hour plus phone "conversation" was to hear you sighed and shed tears.. haiz.. boy wake up! i know you feel very terrible when she said those words to you but sometimes, when the feelings are gone, there is no explanation to why the feelings are gone so suddenly...i know how you feel ... i really know how you feel..haven i gone through the same thing, the same emotional torment? but what can we do if all the other party wants to do is to push the blame away? my fren, love is not a measure of time quantity... it doesnt even help if you have been together for 2 years or wat... a change of heart requires only that split second and all that efforts throughout that past two years would be gone...buck up!! i wan the same old you back! i wan the same old guy who only knows how to peach me on all kinds of logics to be back with me!
throughout that one hour plus conversation with him, i dare say we only talked for like 10 minutes at most.. the rest of the time, we just kept quiet, deep in our own thoughts with background music coming from his place.. hmm of course i thought of him la.. well all i can say is that the mist blocking my brain is finally clearing up.. i dunno if that is a good sign but all i can say is i am tired.. tired of even trying to guess his mind... but as the mist clears off.. i felt a bit scared... scared of something which i cant put into words too... have i really lost him forever? haiz... what is it that makes me so hard to put things down? this guessing game is so tiring... so tiring.. i am tired... i really don't wish to witness a day whereby things are too late for any amendments..
is this wat you really really really want?
