went for two parties yesterday..heez.. eunice and wen jun de.. hmm one at bishan and one at pasir ris..haha.. in the midst of getting ready, i almost pulled down all my black tops.. well because wen jun's theme for her party is "perfect in black" and there's some confusion over the dress code between formal and casual.. hmm XM called me and i called her, each asking what the othere party wearing blah blah blah... but luckily, everything turns out fine eventually... *phew* i hate this kind of feelings whereby i cant find the right clothes to wear... i dunno where all my clothes have gone, despite my endless shopping..but anyway come to think of it, i haven been shopping for a while le..hahaha..

took a cab to eunice's place as i was getting late.. but well i am the first to reach wor..haha.. stood outside and waited for mei jie and company to reach, not daring to go in all by myself..haha.. but i only stayed a while for enuice's party before tooking heels for the other party..

met james, xin mei and evon at bugis... haha.. from far, upon seeing james and xin mei, i couldnt help but laugh..omg...they looked so much like a couple! well matched in heaven...haha... xin mei, even evon agreed with me wor...haha *bleh* at pasir ris, we got to take a bus in, and due to some undergoing work, we got to walk across a field in out high heels..james was walking with such ease while we gals were lagging behind..this is not the worse.. the place was surrounded by the steel grille or sth... and we got to cross those.. and i am the only one wearing skirt!!! *diao* i was like hmmm wat the.... haha.. but eventually, with directions and demorations given i cross over.. haha.. i hate to do such things de lo.. and i rmm mako also make me do such when we got to cross the road near kilat..*ah blish*

wen jun's the first to cry amongst the 21st birthday parties i attended so far..hmm haiz.. she made us wanna cry too.. felt kinda sad too...ha... dreams are dreams?? do dreams and reality really never cross path?? haiz..beats me too...

waiting is a long process.. though i expected it, but sometimes, the disappointment still settle in when things are really of wat u anticipated.. thinking of a lot of things recently and it brought me back to the times when i struggled intitating a break- up.. been thinking of not to pick up the calls, nor to return the messages, but my heart and my mind do not coordinate well!! they jus work differently from one another... different people say different thing.. different people ask the same thing.. i dunno what to say anymore or to think.. its tiring.. maybe i am still gathering courage to walk in another direction from his bah...maybe i am just being used to him by my side again bah.. maybe bah.. maybe...