Y Tuesday, February 21, 2006Y
12:34 AM
though the sweet dream lasted for only two hours, i felt really blissed under his love and care.. i felt that all these while, my effort paid off and my wait wasnt in vain..but dreams are dreams.. but again, its in reality when the sweetness took place!!! but how come it seemed like a dream so suddenly.. i wish so much that he need not return to camp, then maybe everything will last longer and be even more realistic...i wish so much whatever he said, he meant every word.. but i guess there's no way i could know the real answer.. my head hurts a lot and i even vomitted 2am in the morning.. i feel so much like msging him that i eaten sth wrong from the seoul garden.. but i held back..wats the use of caring for someone when he doesnt have the courage to return the feelings.. *tired* dunno how long much i can hold on to.. its another crossroad once again..jus that its even more complicated now..haiz...
as much as i wished for the better, if thats the best you could give me, i would still treasure it always..