Y Thursday, April 20, 2006Y
10:33 PM
can anyone imagine how i feel today when i saw what he replied? i deleted every single sms of his.. every single call received from him and even his number from my hp.. i kept all those sms-es as far dated as july 2005..but today, i just deleted them immediately.. i really feel so disappointed and out of breath.. i finally told him how being made use of or how i have the feeling of being a substitue and yet i was bitten the other way round. his fingers were pointed at me again. enough. its enough
no matter wat i do, no matter how hard i try, i am still at fault. when we were tgt, i envy his friends cos he is so nice to his friends. now as friends, i still envy his friends, even his newly known friends..cos despite the fact i did so much, i received the least amount of his care and understanding..can anyone know what i am trying to say??can i scream out my frustration?but well nvm, i am numb
its a promise to myself that i would dote on myself more and stop giving a shit to him.. i wish i have the courage to ask him to fuck off when he sms me again first time in the 6 weeks after that day..but haiz..
