Y Sunday, May 28, 2006Y
1:31 AM
i definitely feel lighter now.. in fact, so much happier in the past 2 to 3 months.. i know this might not be smooth sailing, i know i might just be dragging the pain for a longer time, but i really dunno what to do... when i try to act brave and get over, i feel such stabbing pain.. i feel so terrible the last time, i openly ignored him.. i felt so sad.. but tonight, i felt so happy.. i feel warm and secured... i scanned my eyes through the crowd, wishing to see a familiar face..when i din, i felt a pang of saddness and disappointment.. the usual me would be happy after a fruitful shopping trip, but then, i felt empty.. it was only when i reached the bus stop, did i see him.. my heart was thumping and i again, trembled a bit..not so much as the first time though...again, i acted normal... when its time to alight, i deliberately took my own sweet time.. boy am i surprised to find him waiting for me at the bus stop.. we chit chatted for quite some time.. and warm feelings nudged me again.. but anyway... let nature takes its own course bah.. i got memories to last me for a life time...plus tonight.. =)
