Y Friday, June 09, 2006Y
8:21 PM
i don't know how many times we have to walk through the same circle.. but seriously, i have no courage to bring things to an end. When i tried to end things, when i tried to have negative impression of him, my heart hurts too. I don't feel good too. When he is "back" into my life again, as a complicated person, i feel happy and comfortable. During the last conversation, we happened to talk about that time when we met at his cousin's house. He knew i was angry with him and he knew that i felt miserable and thats why i forwarded him a msg.. I was like omg.. He said other than his parents, i know him the best. At that moment, i felt so transparent. Its like we could anticipate each other's move. Today i msg him to get back the photos and he agreed. I felt kinda unhappy cos he agreed until so happily like that..But upon asked, he told me that "u must have a reason for doing that so i no need ask u.. u will tell me if u wan to" i felt i am so childish..ha.. i felt i couldnt make a surprise very well..
He knew i have a blog and he wanted to read my blog.. he asked if i metioned him in my blog.. he ansered his own qn confidently that he knew i would..haha.. we had a bet.. before his bday, if he found my blog, i owe him a treat. and if he din, he gotta treat me.. well.. i dunno if i want him to know about my blog.. let nature takes its own course bah..
in my mind, i formed an idea for his present le.. but i need to get my stuffs first..hmm hope my art is passable..heez..hope everything would go great on his bday. =)
