As there were only 3 granddaughters (M, T and me) on my mom' side, we were very close back then. I was the youngest and my eldest cousin, M, would always bring me out and i would always stay at her house during holidays. CNY was a worthy occasion to look forward to until 7 years ago when the 2nd cousin, T, decided to get married, well i would say its more to leaving with no choice. She seldom join us and i am only left with M. M got married a year later but we still went out frequently. She even got a flat at Senja which was near to my house and mentioned i could stay over more frequently once the building is up. We missed each other on the next CNY and thereafter, we missed each other forever. I hope that bloody bitch is still being hunted in her nightmares. She is a murderer.

And so CNY was just me and the relatives. To date, I am still happy with them cos they dote on me and i can be "rude" with them and they dont mind. But its not going to be the same soon. Granny passed away, i have to go more places to bai nian, doing things i dun like. i cant collect anymore red packets. this year CNY is so cold. unhappy. sad.

life is sad huh.